I love thunderstorms. It is amazing to me how powerful and breathtaking they are. The rain washes everything away, washes the earth clean so that we may begin anew. The piercing cracks of thunder and the bright flashes of lightening make the storm that much more incredible. The rainbow after the storm once the sun comes out proves the beauty that rain can create.
Though rain and flooding have somewhat turned my life upside down, I believe it was God’s symbol to me to start clean. To wash away my previous life which I became submissive, so that i may renew myself, that I may start again and find my true passion. Now it is just a matter of determining what exactly that is. I see so many of my friends pursuing their dreams, making something of themselves, making a name for themselves, and I seem lost. I have forgotten what my dreams are or have realized that I never really had any serious dreams in the first place. I focused so long for what I wanted in the past that I forgot about the future.
Love, American Beautiful 
I feel the same way sometimes! And don’t worry, you will find what it is that you love! Here is a little prayer that I like a lot! Hope you like! 🙂
“Above all, trust in the slow work of God
We are quite naturally impatient in everything
to reach the end without delay.
We would like to skip the intermediate stages.
We are impatient of being on the way to something
unknown, something new.
And yet it is the law of progress
that it is made by passing through
some stages of instability —
and that it may take a long time.
And so I think it is with you.
Your ideas mature gradually — let them grow,
let them shape themselves, without undue haste.
Don’t try to force them on,
as though you could be today what time
(that is to say, grace and circumstances
acting on your own good will)
will make of you tomorrow.
Only God could say what this new spirit
gradually forming within you will be.
Give Our Lord the benefit of believing
that his hand is leading you,
and accept the anxiety of feeling yourself
in suspense and incomplete.”
-Pierre Teilhard De Chardin
Love ya so much and am always here for you!
-Cares